And every sinner has a future. It is a well known saying and yet I had forgotten it until I heard Father mention it today in his homily.

It is true that I have a future. Maybe to become a saint. But so much has to be peeled away and maybe burnt off. I can be prideful and struggle with making amends with some difficult people in my life who probably also think I am difficult.

I keep thinking that when it comes for me to be judged by the Merciful Lord, I do not think to every question He might ask me does he want to hear, “Yes, but…” I assume there is no room for the “but” at the Pearly Gates.

God has a plan for my life and most of my life has been forgetting He exists or has a plan for me. I am slowly getting there to put God first in everything. Forever, I felt I could not pray with my husband each day a quick prayer for the day ahead but I did do it consistently with my children. I finally started and I think it will be so helpful for when we struggle to communicate to have the help of heaven to make things make sense.

And of course so many people in my life who say things in front of me that I should be responding to nicely to help or direct to promote how much Jesus loves us… I don’t know what I mean exactly.

But my focus should always be on me and my family, those God have given me to move forward with in this life to run the race well (thanks St Paul).

Just day by day is all I can do but I hope I never forget to ask God to be focused on Him and to bring Him to others – which would be great if I actually did all that but from my mouth to God’s ears.

Fiat.